Waiting to a star to fall...

So said the lyrics of the 'Boy meets girl's' song of the early 90's, probably remembered most by fans of the film Three Men and a Baby.  But I feel like I am waiting for a star to fall.  That star being my last grades for this course.  So I'm either hoping that either these stars will fall, or my accomplishment and hard work will cause me to rise up amongst the stars as I reach upward to my dream of studying a degree. A dream that I have had for many years and always thought was unattainable. Scarily now that dream is within my grasp, it seems further away than ever before. To get to the point at I'm at now has taken dedication, focus, life juggling skills beyond any of I'd had to use before, and sacrifice.  I've had to sacrifice time with family and friends, and sadly some friendships or what I thought were friendships have disappeared altogether.  But by my reckoning if those friends didn't support me in my quest for education, then they are not proper friends.  So I'm sat in limbo,  my kayak is back afloat, the reeds which tethered me have sunk into the water, but the water is still.  I'm just sat waiting for the breeze to blow me in the direction that fate has decided for me.  If nothing else I can look at myself in the mirror and know in my heart that I have given this course my absolute best! I had nothing left in the reservoir, though in honesty I may have changed my last two essays if I'd had more time. But I didn't, so I will just have to resign myself to that.  So I'm just waiting ....waiting....and waiting some more....watch this space x