I'm late, I'm late, for a very important date....

Okay I'm sorry it's been at least a month since my last confession...well maybe this isn't a confessional but it does feel like that at times my life is flashing by at a rate of knots at the moment. I've just submitted my psychology experiment, hopefully I will have done enough to get a good mark. I worked really hard on it! I've written a draft of my dissertation and have started revising and editing it. I'm working on my next English assessment which is a presentation along with a 400 word close analysis, I've written a draft for the 400 words I just need to tweak it, and I'm set up the PowerPoint for my presentation, I've just got to load it up with the notes I've already written. On top of that I'm about to start reading Persepolis, the final piece we are going to be looking at for Cultural Studies. It's mad but I don't think I even realise how much I've been working until I put it down in print. On a personal level I was laid up last week with a terrible cold but more seriously I'm having severe 'women's problems' so much so that I have an internal scan booked for Thursday. Aren't I the lucky one! No point worrying about it, my focus is all on college right now. It's scary that after Easter I have only got 8 teaching weeks left!!!!!! 8!!!!!!! This course has breathed fresh air into my lungs, it has re-ignited my love of learning, it has blown away the cobwebs from my brain. I have devoured this course! I love it! But sadly it is moving along so rapidly that my time on this course is getting ever closer to its finale. It's a show I don't want to end. Strangely I feel as though I'm coasting in my metaphorical kayak right now, whilst I can see the finish line, I'm not certain I want to cross it. At college I've settled, I know my classmates, I've made friends (although honestly I expect our paths beyond this point will lead us all in different directions) and I know my teachers and setting well. I even know the cafe staff by first names! Beyond that finish line right now is only darkness, as until I know my final marks from this course there won't be any more studying, so I'm holding myself back and working my arse off right now to chip away at the darkness beyond. I've chipped away a third of the darkness, there are shards of light shining through that darkness, but I need to power through, hold firm and hope and pray that for once my best will be enough. I'm listening to my theme, imagining what could be beyond this course, but staying real. They say it ain't over until the fat lady sings. Well trust me, if Im fortunate enough, I've no doubt they'll be hearing me sing from miles around...xxx