Happy...

Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof...clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth! I feel happy to have Larry home from Skiing! So pleased that he came home safely! Last week was sooooooo tough!!!! I had an exam on Monday, then my English essay had to go in last week too! It's scary how quickly the weeks are flying by now! I've got my presentation for study skills tomorrow, for my dissertation. I'm looking forward to it, want to get it done so that I can start writing my dissertation. Plus I've just got my first participant for my psychology experiment.  I just need to get another 29 participants at least! Got to get them all by Friday week. I'm afraid Im in between clients so this weeks blog will be short but hopefully sweet. My songs playing, I'm paddling like hell, and hoping that I can see blue skies soon both metaphorically and in reality. So for now it's TTFN and chocks away x

You gotta be...

As the lovely Des'ree sings 'you gotta be bold, you gotta be wise, you gotta be stronger!' You're right there! Undertaking this course is probably one of the toughest things I've ever had to do. I have been stretched both physically and emotionally by this course. Just when I think I have no more to give, I've  found that this course has asked for more!!! I feel like I'm Mr Bumble from Oliver with all of my lecturers and the universities I've applied for, all lined up holding out their bowls asking for more.     It's tough, it's scary, I often doubt my own ability but I am tough, and I do want to study a degree more than anything I've ever wanted! And if it kills me I'm going to do it. I know that I would make a great social worker, I know I can be a better social worker than those I've had dealings with in the past, and I know that if one of the universities give me an opportunity. I will prove to them that they've made the right decision. I've got my UCS interview tomorrow, so lots of reading ahead for me this evening, then a weekend of revision for my Cultural Studies exam on Monday, plus a look at my english exam. I'm happy with the content, I just want to play around with it a bit.  Getting those distinctions was fantastic but it just means all of my lecturers expect more from me now, as long as I've done my best I can hold my head up high, but to be honest I want all distinctions from now on. My paddling is a bit frantic at the mo, I'm finding it tough going, and the waterway ahead is very windy but I'm a tough cookie, Im determined, very stubborn and not about to rely on the current. I will forge ahead if it kills me. I will think of Linzi and with my theme turned onto full volume I'm going to keep on paddling...x

The long and winding road...

So I've been away for a couple of weeks but I've been ridiculously busy! Not only have I hosted Christmas for both sets of parents, organised and wrapped all presents, and generally been superwoman but on top of that I've worked my butt off studying. Larry and Meg bought me a huge retro angle poise lamp for the lounge, which makes my studying, or at least being able to see to study much easier.  I was lucky enough to be gifted with wine (though I don't drink) and cash, and lots of chocolates, which I think we will still all be eating at Easter! Anyway, not only did I have lots of college work to do but I had to provide extra information as to my relevant experience for my UEA application, followed up by an email requesting a 1000 word essay.  That's not all, I've had to work on the prep for my UCS interview. I'm hoping that Anglia Ruskin will also come back to me to confirm a new interview date.  And I'm hoping that the UEA invite me to interview. With all the work I've had to do I'd be very disappointed if I didn't get an interview now. My only low point is that I haven't actually started to even think about my English essay and it's due in in under two weeks! And I will be missing my English lesson on fri 15th as I will be at UCS interview!  Guess I will have to hope and pray that I'm able to get enough from this weeks English lesson to kick arse in the essay. I've not decided which short story to cover yet, but I will have to choose by Friday. I've also got my Cultural Studies exam on the 18th!!! It's CR-AZY!!! Margie said that after Christmas time would fly and we needed to really knuckle down, well she wasn't kidding! It's only 6 weeks until half term! So much to do! Not enough time to do it! But I will do it, if it kills me! This is hard, but I've gone through much harder.  This road is long and winding, and right now it feels like my kayak is moving through sludge, I can see clearly the route ahead but I'm bogged down and making slow progress. The additional uni work has added extra weight to my kayak, to forge ahead along this waterway is going to be tough.  But I am tough. And it's going to get tougher yet, so I'm going to turn up my song to full volume, roll up the sleeves, and paddle like my life depends on it!...