It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...

Week 10 has been an interesting one, I completely lost it over losing 1% attendance over a class that was cancelled. However I was in college and studying so hope that will be put right very quickly. It's amazing how riled I can get over something so little. I guess I'm just thinking that even if my impending results are not as high as entry requirements, that having 100% attendance at the end of the course would help me towards securing a place. I'm very much in limbo right now, still waiting for the results of both my exam and my assignments. There are nine marks up for grabs and I need to score merits across this whole course to stand a chance at getting a degree place. That's not easy. I wouldn't say I'm finding the actual work itself hard, but having the time that I would like to study available to me. See that's the thing. I'm loving the studying. I don't have enough hours in the day to absorb more information. But I'm loving it, I really am. I just hope that the work I'm able to put in is enough to add a sail to my kayak and help me along this white water otherwise known as this course. My theme song is playing in my head, but it's at a lower level whilst I await my results, however another song is running alongside it.(See title lol) Anyone who knows me will know that I. LOVE. CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!! I love it so much!!! And ordinarily this time of year any spare time would be spent preparing for it. I'm only grateful I started my Christmas preparations in September before I started this course, so although my time this year is more limited than it has ever ever been I'm all wrapped, and pretty much ready to go! I just hope that these results will give me an early Christmas present, and keep my force going strong. I'm paddling hard, and fast I've just got to hope that the tide is on my side, and that I'm able to negotiate any tricky water ahead of me x

Happy Birthday to ya, Happy Birthday!...

Well I'm back to week 1 of my new topics. I have another two weeks before I will find out how I did in my assignments and exam. And this week it's my birthday!!! I've hit the books hard all week just so that I can have some 'me' time over the weekend. The waiting for my results is a killer. Plus I could possibly hear from my applied for universities just after Christmas. It's tough. This whole course is tough. I need to know if I'm able to achieve a level of pass that will help me into uni. I'm still working blind right now. Sadly I've lost a friend from my course, but now is not the right time for him. He will come back to the course  next year bigger and better I'm sure!  It may sound like I'm being grumpy but I have to concentrate on myself and my work on this course. I know I gave my assignments my absolute best as I did my exam. I felt elated upon finishing my exam I just hope that elation was justified. This weekend having time with Meg and Larry has shown me the sacrifices to family time of this course, I need to make sure that study balances in with my family. Regardless they are my number one priority, and nothing will shift them off of that top spot. And this week my theme song is replaced by Stevie (as mentioned in title) at least until tomorrow. Then I will be playing my theme again, getting my head back into the books and giving this course what for. All this paddling just makes me stronger, but having had the love of my family turning the tide in my favour I have advanced a long way in a short space of time, and will keep paddling on until I reach my destination. X

When the going gets tough.....

Ok, I know I've been away for two weeks but I have been mega busy!!! My first two assignments have gone in, so I will be crapping myself for the next three weeks until I get the results.  And I sat my first exam for 23 years yesterday!!!! Scary stuff!!!! To be honest I'm feeling pretty good.  Whatever marks I get I know I've given those essays and the exam everything I have! I'm completely drained! But I still have a smile on my face.  My song is playing louder than ever, and has had a bit of a remix to suit my current frame of mind. We are currently grooving down this path to a dance mix of my song. And I've gone through the white water passage, and have finally hit an expanse of smooth, calm waters, at the moment. I know that at any time the tide can turn, but for now I'm enjoying the peace and quiet.  I have a mountain of reading to do this weekend, and a mind map to prepare for Monday's first lesson on Pop art, but I will get it done, today or tomorrow.  It's weird to think that I'm already a quarter into this course, one quarter down three more to go.  It's been such a steep learning curve so far, but hopefully now I can stay on a level.  I know it's going to get harder of course it is, but I'm sure this first section is definitely the hardest.  I've learnt to run from standing completely still, but as I'm tough I guess I will keep on going lol xxx